Saturday, November 20, 2010
I don't know what it is lately but it seems as though everything is becoming a question. Once upon a time i had all the answers to anything i needed,
favorite color? Purple.
Project due? next Week.
Best friends? tons :).
But now it seems as though every answer has another question.
Will i get a good average? Will you pass math?
Do you like him? Does he like you?
What will you do? What do you like to do?
it seems almost impossible to do anything without thinking of something else. like every thing i run into I'm hit with another wall. Hmmm... I'm slowly discovering that life is much more complicated than it seems. Or maybe im just losing my mind.... :S Oh the sweet joys of being a teenager.
You don't have to suffer to be a poet. Adolescence is enough suffering for anyone. ~John Ciardi, Simmons Review, Fall 1962
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Together we stand,
A Fortress, strong,
our fears awakened,
all time is gone,
we rise at light,
we stand, we fight,
to save the souls,
from terror and plight,
stumbling from ground to ground,
we cannot see with blinding sound,
earths shatter and lives drop spent,
this is but a consequence,
thoughts of lives form the past,
children, mothers waiting back,
tears shed in utter anguish,
it doesn't make it any less,
but we won! and fought for life,
no battle sought or earthly plight,
compares to this, our pact to peace,
when arms went down and fighting ceased,
Together we stood,
a fortress, strong,
our fears awoke,
but that time is gone,
and now our memory does stay,
for those who live here everyday,
we ask but one simple quest,
LEST WE FORGET.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
its been a long time since my last post..... err, a few months...ish. Im kinda mad at myself because i wanted to oh so very badly continue with this lovely blogging site, so im now making a blogging vow to myself to at least post something three times a week. Every day was a bit much for me, (especially now with school and whatnot....) so i have decided three times a week should be good :) Again i am truly sorry for my absolutely busy life!
So whats new with me? Not too much, been busy as usual, hating math, (But this will be an extremely long sob story so I'll save that for another post.), working on writing the soundtrack of my schools entry in this years drama festival!!!! (Whoot whoot!) Once again joined showchoir, enviornmental, chaplaincy, council of presidents, OSAID, and was asked to be on the arts council. ( which has some pretty neat ideas this year.) On top of that i am volunteering Tuesdays, working on a play with another church, (not mine, but my mothers friends) AAANNNDDDD, i work at the library. All of this plus making time for my social life, but of course because of university in two years, school is definitely my first priority. :)
As you can see from the above paragraph, i am utterly swamped. D: but it isnt so bad, because (as you can see) I still have a spare moment while i study for tomorrows geography, (yuck :( ) test i have a spare moment to share my thoughts. :). Well hope you enjoyed my random tid bits on my life. Hope you have an awesome day.... umm... night! I am so looking forward to reading everyone's blogs again! I missed this site! Happy Blog Reunion!
"Many a witty inspiration is like the surprising reunion of befriended thoughts after a long separation. " -Karl Wilhelm Schlegel
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
(This is what basically happened today, this and I went to an amazingly fun wedding! So yes this was a part of an email sent to a friend explaining my Sunday morning at mass.)
Oh my goodness!
Today was terrifying! I sing every week in the church choir and I went to churh as usual at 8 to practice for the 8:30 mass. So I'm there we get through all the songs for mass except the psalm, because the organ player hadn't arrived yet. We wait, and wait, finally there is five minutes until the mass is due to start and someone tips them off that I play piano....
The piano, is not the organ.
*shudders* this thing had three rows of keys and like ten pedals! When I went through it the first time I went to hit the pedal to hold the notes so it would sound pretty, but that "pedal" turned out to be the thing that controls the volume, ten pedals, and I hit the only one that does that... oh good lord. In five minutes I learnt the song. I was so lucky that the psalm this week was in the key of c. No sharps or flats and I practically had sight read the entire thing while playing it I was so scared. My eye was twitching I had like a cold sweat my entire body shaking except weirdly enough my Hands and arms were perfectly still... Anyways I played the entire thing with no mistakes!!! And next week if the guy still isn't there I am up for round two... My lord this will be a day I will always remember.
Oh my goodness gracious, today had to be the longest day ever. As I think I mentioned in the last post, my moms steering fuel line in her car cracked, so today we spent practically the entire day waiting for it to be repaired. We made it to the shop and dropped off the car, the guy said it would take a couple hours to get it done so we decided to walk to Tim Horton's. We got there had some breakfast and chilled, two hours later we get a phone call, thinking that her car was done my mom answered it. Turned out it was going to take a lot longer than they initially thought. By this point my mom doesn't care she just needs her car done so that we can continue with out lives. So we wait. An hour goes by, no big deal, we're playing cards and having coffee. two hours go by, still everything is fine. Three hours go by, and we start to get worried. Four hours comes by and we figure we should leave the coffee shop, considering we've been there longer than some of these peoples shifts. So we go back to the shop and finally the call us up. It was 6 and a bit hours of absolutely nothing! Had we known we would have taken a cab to the movies or something, that was ridiculous! Anyways that was basically my day, sitting playing cards.
Today I had quite a few things going on at once. the major important thing that I was really excited/frightened/worried/nervous about was my job interview for the library. this was m second interview, the first was at a different branch and they passed me on to this branch because it is easier for me to get to, but if i don't get the job here then I will still definitely have a job at the other branch, so I wasn't worried, but I was all at the same time. Also after my interview I went to the movies with one of my best friends, who I also had to give the money for my Wicked ticket, (Her mom got us frot row seats!!!!! SQUEE!)
Anyways everything went well, the interview was awesome, but I thought it was a little strange tat the lady, (krista) Interviewing me introduced me to the staff, (she didn't do this with the girl before me...) So I hope that that was a good sign. On the down side, I forgot my folder at one of the desks there, which really sucks, because I was trying to leave a good impression, so that sort of sucked, but its okay I guess.
the movies was fun, my awesomely awesome friend and I saw Inception for the second time, and it makes so much more sense now. You know I don't really like Leonardo DiCaprio, but he was pretty good in that movie. So That was fun, other than that and my mothers car breaking down, (Steering fluid line cracked) everything was pretty good.
Today My mom and I went out with one of her friends who was having a bit of a bad spot I guess. things weren't really working out for her and she wanted to meet up with us at McDonalds for some lunch. My first thought, great, what the heck does McDonalds have that I can actually eat? (I have made it my goal to eat more healthier) So I went anyways and we met up with her. We walked up to the cash and I was desperately looking at the menu for something that wasn't a Burger. Then I saw a sign, It was like a ray of light beckoning me toward it, "SALADS" yes, I thought, maybe I should try it out.
I was a little bit hesitant at first because recently i had gone out with my mom and I ordered a Greek salad, that tasted soo bad my stomach was just turning, but I ordered a McDonald "Mediterranean salad" Which is basically a Greek salad. I opened it and what not and began to eat it, I was pleasantly surprised! It was actually really, really good. it was shocking, because I wasn't expecting it to taste that good! So yes my message of today is that I so recommend McDonald salads. :D
Me: Mmmm I had a McDonald's Salad for lunch!
My Sister: Oh god, was the lettuce deep fried?
Today was actually pretty fun. My aunt and her 4 kids came from Aurora and spent the day with us at the beach. We live walking distance from the beach, and my cousins rarely get to actually go to the beach, so they just had a blast! we played volley ball, had a barbecue at the park, and just had some fun family time. It was really great! Eventually everyone decided to go swimming, I was in the middle of working on an art piece so I didn't feel like swimming, instead I decided to paint at the beach.
I figured, that would be so inspirational, painting my godmothers picture at the beach, with the beautiful water and the sand, just like in the movies...no. never again will I ever paint at the beach. it is sooo overrated. i got sand all in my paint, on my canvas, and I learnt, never, ever paint with acrylics in the heat because they dry so fast that if you have to mix the colors you don't stand a chance. Not to mention the little girl who wanted to "finger paint," on my canvas, and the screaming children. Oh, yes, it was here that I remembered i have sensitive skin and my legs got rashes all over them because of the sand rubbing on them every time I moved. I finished the painting, eventually, but it was so annoying to paint it there.
On the plus side, I did manage to tan my legs pretty evenly and turn a few shades darker than I was when I came, so that was good.
"Painting at the beach is so overrated."
Today was just one of those days where time seems like it is moving super slow. Where not matter what you do or where you are everything just seems so boring. I don't know why it was like this today, My sister and I were over at a friends house. my sister was swimming but I didn't because I forgot my swim suit. Whatever, I had my sketch book so I started to draw instead. Everything seemed good, except i was still sooo bored. finally I decided to go inside and chill. i was sitting on the couch reading when my friends brother came up to me and showed me this mini slot machine thing and said pull, it see if you win. Stupid me I did, the thing shocked me!
I don't know how it got to this point a few minutes later where my sister and my brothers friend were timing me to see how long I could continuously shock myself before i gave up. I lasted thirty seconds, a lot longer than all of them, bet you I could have lasted longer, but my mother took away the machine thing. i know I probably sound really stupid, but I realized you do very strange things when your bored. So I went back to sitting and reading.
A Little later, when they were done with the pool, they had to take everything out of it, (noodles, floating chairs, beach balls...) so thinking I was being a good person I decided I could take the things that were close to the side out. I went out to the pool and reached down to grab the chair, suddenly i hear something hit the bottom, I looked down and pure panic went right through me. the little black thing that hit the bottom of the pool, was none other than my touch screen cell phone.... needless to say it's fried. Now I am back with my old Motorola flip. On the plus side, at least I have a working cell phone.
"today I mourned the loss of my cell."
Today it was really funny, my cousin went to work, and we were sort of worried because he came back an hour later than he usually does. He walks in the door all flustered and annoyed and we asked him what happened.
"Well," hhe said "it started off as a good, day, until I started doing stock." (Where heworls they have their stock room on the third floor so they have an elevator in the back) "I was bringing some stuff in the elevator, as I am going down suddenly the elevator stops, and guess what? Im stuck. I start screaming and banging on the door for them to let me out. And they are all like "Matteo, are you okay in there don't worry we'll get you out." I was freaking out and yelling then about five ten minutes later I realised something.. Im not working. So I sat on the ground pulled out my phone started texting, ipod was going. Forty minutes later they get me out, and lucky me, I have to carry everything from the third floor, by hand. yes that is 157 steps with heavy boxes.
So yes that inst all. then later I was asked to do a stock run for a later who wanted this fork set or whatever, and I ran up the stairs and get it. When I come back she starts yelling at me because it took me so long. Well I try to explain to her that the elvator broken and I have to go up to the third floor. she said, " well if you weren't so fat maybe you could run faster." I said excuse me? you try running up and down 157 steps while carrying stock and tell me how long it takes you. and then I said she didnt have to be such a bitch. the lady starts freaking out, i want to talk to your supervisor, blah blah. So I get her. My supervisor came to us and said, "matteo, did you call her that" I said, nope, I called her a witch. And the lady left, I then turned to my supervisor and told her, yes I did actually call her that. And she said matteo you know you are going to have to lose a point for this, (we get 30) I said thats ok, I still have 28. she asked me what happened to the other point, I told her I was saving it for something special. And she laughed at me.
then, later, this huge buff guy comes into the store, and asked for a carry out for two small little boxes. I looked at my supervisor and said really I have to go all the way to the basement for this huge guy. She said I know matteo hes an ass, but just do it. So I did it exaggerating all the way down to the basement with how light the packages are, only to find out when he pulled up his car that he was a police officer. So I put the bags in the car and ran back upstairs. There is even more. Later on, this man was being agressive towards one of our female cashiers, and I had to lock him out of the store.
Oh yes, then there was this asian woman who came up to me with this set and asked me how much it is so I told it was on sale for 29.99. So she said what the regular price was I said 89.00. So she asked again, "how much?" I said 29.99. she paused then said.. "how much?" I told her 29...99. another pause, "okay" and she went to the chec out where five minutes later I see her arguing with the cashier trying to give her 89.00 and the cashier kept saying 29.99. Eventually she gave up said fine, 89.00. and rang her out.
That was my work day, and then on the bus home we were stopped because this guy was freaking out on the bus driver and they had to call the police to remove him. His reason for freaking out, the bus driver put the air conditioning on and asked us to kindly shut the windows. This guy didnt want to shut the window. so I am finally back."
and that was the story for the day.....
today was super fun! It is day one at my Godparents house, and things are looking up, today we hung around went shopping and watched a movie. I know this sounds like stuff you do everyday, but I dont know how to explain it, its just so much more fun with my Godparents and cousins. Unlike a lot of people in this world today, these guys just know how to make people feel welcome, with them it isnt like your a guest its like you are family. Ive grown up around my Godparents and could spend everyday of my life with them and never get bored. I could also never get angry with them, because they are like my mom in the sense that I respect them so much.
Anyways my uncle jo, haha is such a suck. Today he was wining and complaining all day, because he had this kink in his neck, and all we could to was laugh. You see my uncle is like a giant baby, (in a hilariously good way of course) he has no pain tolerance, even though he is this big construction worker. So yes, my mom was rubbing his shoulders trying to get the kink uot and he was screaming, finally my mom gave up, (not after smacking him in the head) my uncle rolls his should and lifts his arm and was all quiet. "I couldnt do that before.." he said and all of us erupt into laughter.
A Little later we stuffed and ate canoli. I forgot to mention this in the last post, but on top of making tomatoe sauce I also made the cream for the canoli. this morning (it isnt very difficult just milk, sugar and corn starch,)and we brought some of the shells that we had made so we could eat them there. For those who dont know Sicilian canoli are an amazing dessert that are extremely difficult to make but completely worth it. They are usually made for special occasions like baptisms, confirmations, weddings.... and my uncle absolutely adores them. so he was so thrilled that we brough them, but my cousin and I with our twisted sense of humor couldn't eat them after a comment my uncle made.....
"Look at the size of this thing1 How the hell am I supposed to put it in my mouth!"
today was an awesome day, (tomorrow we leave to go to my Godparents) and last minute my mom got an order for a lasagna. She couldn't say no and she decided to make it anyways. So yes, I have never made lasagna or pasta sauce for that matter, and today my mom decided it would be a good day for me to learn. When my mom says learn, she means, "I'll give you basic instructions, then you will figure it out on your own..."and I love that about her, she letting my sister and I make make our own mistakes and accomplishments. So anyways, thats what I did, I made lasagna. The lady who ordered the lasagna, ordered a meat lasagna so I had to make the sauce, and my moms sauce isn't like that crap you get at the supermarket it is real Italian tomatoe sauce. Which unfortunately takes at least half a day to make because it needs to simmer for hours and hours on low. I had learned from past experiences that if one didnt continuously stir the sauce you burnt everything and then it tasted like poison, so I knew had to stir this thing. Finally after the suace was done I mad ethe lasagna which wasnt too difficult just layering of the pasta and then sauce and cheese every layer, sauce cheese meat butter every other, That didnt take long, but as soon as I was finished an entire day went by and I felt like I was on top of the world because I had successfully made that lasagna! My point to this is, I think the way my mom taught my sister and I to take control of situations was correct. Kids need to make their own mistakes, and have accomplishments that they themselves did. I'm not saying let your kids run wild and they will figure things out eventually but I mean that parents can only do so much, they teach them what is right and wrong and give them the basic guidelines, what we do with them is our choice. When/if I ever have children when Im older, I am definitely looking towards my mom as an example parent. "I can't stop crying!!!! Damn those onions!" _(a quote from me when I was making sauce.)
Today I did some packing, because I will be spending the weekend at my godparents house in toronto. Im really excited because I love visiting them and we're (my mom, sister and I) spending the entire weekend with them. So yes, didn't do much today, but I did have a very, very long chat with one of my best friends. I don't know what it is but I could talk to her for hours and hours and never run out of topics to discuss, shes the type of person who has so much to say but never enough time and that's awesome. It will be completely random too, one minute talking about summer vacation then the next her mom at a horse race last year, its always interesting to talk with her the stories never end. I realized something this summer, I love my friends so much. They put up with me even though I am eccentric, have my weird quirks, and have a very dark/twisted sense of humor. They have stuck with me and "didnt" introduce me to facebook lol, (my mother hates facebook with a passion) and I have so many memories with them. I'm kind of upset hat I only have two more years of highschool, because it means I will probably lose a lot of the friends I made. Graduation is that critical tme when you discover who your closer friends are and who will stick with you, hopefully I keep as many as I can... Anyways On a happier note, I finished a design for another painting today! whoot whoot! Hopefully I will have it done the next time we visit ,my godparents, (as it is for them) . So ya have an awesome break!!! "I she was going to ask him if his butt hurt! I was so embarrassed!" - (A quote form my phone call)
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
1. tomorrow I go to the spa! Yay, my eyebrows are overdue to be done and my nails are going to be polished, my sister and I are trying out a new local spa, this should be fun!
2. Although this was supposed to be the week im in the Dominican, its still going to be awesome. Spending time in toronto with my cousins, seeing the CN tower with my sis and going to see the terracotta warriors at the rom
3. inception was a pretty good movie, saw that today and it was awesome. I was surprised because I dont normally like Leonardo DiCaprio..... hmmm changed my mind just a little bit.
4. Today I finally watched the season finally of glee, although it was a little predictable it was still great!!! Also found out that there is a Glee karaoke coming out on wii this fall, that will be my birthday present.
5. need to search my cupboards for a dress, going to a wedding on the 1st found out last minute, but this should be sooooooo much fun!
and that is pretty much it, heres a quote.....
"The most wasted of all days is one without laughter." ~e.e. cummings
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
food court musical:
this video makes me laugh every time because I know it would be something that I would do. I would love to see this happen one day, that would be awesome!
High Five Escalator:
I think that if this happened to me, it would honestly make my day!
I don't know how they managed to do this without laughing, haha, very funny, would be cool if I saw them perform it, lol.
"Improv cures what ails americans." --- Liz Allen, improv olympic
1. Old men shopping in speedos. Yup this has to be number one.
2. negative people. People who are always complaining, or just can never see the brght side to any situation. they tend to down me so much, I really don't like being around them.
3. people who dress their animals. I dont know what is so fun about torturing your dog by making them wear a humiliating fluffy costume, I don't like it when people put clothing on their animals, or leashes on guinea pigs.
4. when people leave the milk out. In my house I hate it when someone decided to pour a glass of milk, but doesn't put the container in the fridge. it's always when I want a glass and the milk is on the verge of curdling. I hate that!
5. When your folding laundry and all the clothing is inside out. I hate that, it just makes me twitch having to flip out all the clothes to fold them.
6. when people lip sing. I don't get the point of it, you might as well sing it out loud! Its more fun, and who cares if you sound atrocious, have come confidence and belt it out!
7. over competitive people. People who just go too far when they are playing or doing something and the competitive person starts getting angry and wont calm down. That is really a downer and drains the fun out of a game.
8. when your looking for fork, but all you can find is spoon. Gah! This one annoys me so much in my house we have a lot more spoons than forks, so when the forks are in the dish washer there will still be spoons, and I hate it when that happens and I really need a fork.
9. when its an important day, you want to look good, and your hair decided to go frizzy, and nothing tat you do will fix it.
10. nails on a chalk board...... *shudders* speaks for itself.
"I don't have pet peeves, I have whole kennels of irritation..." -Whoopi Goldberg
Sunday, July 18, 2010
*sighs* today has been a reeeaaallly long day, i am trying to come up with an idea to write a novel. I want to write one so badly, but I can't come up with any good ideas. Ive got ideas, don't get me wrong but none of them really scream "writable". I don't know what it is but I am the kind of person who will always have two million things rushing through their head at once. I am never really able to focus on one main Idea and stick to it when writing, its kind of like having writing ADD.
I know what my goal is, to have my novel completed by the time i graduate high school, but the true question is, "What will i write about?". I have some sort of idea I guess, I want to write something that I know, something that I can relate to, because if I write about what I know half the research involved is already done. And, if i can relate to it, then i will want to actually continue with the idea. I also want to write something that other people will enjoy reading, that if they ever saw it would like to give it a shot. I want to catch peoples attention. But, at the same time I don't really care how many people actually read it, as long as it is read by someone who isn't me, lol.
I also want it to be fiction, because I like fiction. I read it because it allows me to forget everything that is happening and get immersed in someone else s problems. I want it to be reality with a twist, maybe a future novel, or an other worldly novel. My last stipulation, is that this novel be unique. I don't want to follow this wizard/vampire trend that has hit the markets recently and want my work to be unique and different. plus I am tired of constantly picking up books in the bookshop and all of them being the same... it really is a pet peeve.
When/if i ever come up with an idea I am so going to write this, I don't care what comes out of it, it is my personal goal to finish a novel before I graduate, think I can do it?
"I think the first duty of all art, including fiction of any kind, is to entertain. That is to say, to hold interest. No matter how worthy the message of something, if it's dull, you're just not communicating."- Poul Anderson
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Dear Bianc, (My nickname for "Bianca")
the past 13 years, (or since you've been born,) really have been a beautiful disaster I guess. In the sense that we are always fighting, bickering and making fun of each other, but once the day is over, we always laugh things off like they're no big deal. Ever since the day you were born I have secretly loved you,( although I would never tell you to your face, because there is waaaayyy to much competition between us and to do so would be a loss on my side of the court, :S ) and you always somehow make my day brighter.
When we were both small, (I three, you newborn) mom told me I used to watch you from over your crib talking to you. I would say, "your number one! Your number one!" and only recently I have discovered what that really means. You are my one and only sister, and you always will be "number one!" you will always be there for me and I for you, and when you graduate the eighth grade next year, I will be the one who helps you pick out your dress and get you ready, like you did to me. You have always been in my life, and I promise that whenever you need me I will be there for you. I will miss you so much when I go to university in two years.
I know I have done some things in the past that have hurt you, and I regret all of it. :( I hope that you can forgive me for my lack of patience, for my crazy mood swings, and some times too serious personality. I think that you are an amazing person, and a gift in my life! If you ever read this don`t make fun of me.......
Having a sister is like having a best friend you can't get rid of. You know whatever you do, they'll still be there. ~Amy Li
Friday, July 16, 2010
I am a huge fan of music and the performing arts, and lately i have been browsing youtube for some new choir groups and I cam upon this one video that i must have watched ten times and every single on gave me chills. It is the Miami University men's Glee club singing Leonard Cohen's Hallelujah and they are just fantastic! Just thought i would share this.....
here is also one other choir that i thought was really cool. They are singing the song africa, all a capella and are creating a thunderstorm with just their bodies, its crazy the effect they make with a little bit of lighting! Check it out,
"The singer has everything within him. The notes come out from his very life. They are not materials gathered from outside. " ~Rabindranath Tagore
Thursday, July 15, 2010
“There is no doubt that creativity is the most important human resource of all. Without creativity, there would be no progress, and we would be forever repeating the same patterns.” — Edward de Bono
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Today I had an awesomely amazing day, I don't know but I just felt so good today it seemed as though everything is going to go right for me. It was one of those days where you feel so positive even though everyone around you seems miserable and annoyed it just can't bring you down. I was on top of the world today. And the weirdest thing is, nothing really happened to put me in this mood.....
It started off ordinary, woke up everything was fine I cleaned my room, and ate breakfast, watched Tv and then visited the internet for a bit. my mom had a job interview so she was out for a bit and my sister was having an altogether horrible day and I was at the end of it, but oddly enough that didn't bother me in the slightest. So after that I made lunch for both my sister and I and then we decided to chill at the beach for a bit. Where we had a good laugh, and were slightly scarred for life. :D
We were swimming in the water when we see this elderly couple come down near where our things were on shore, they looked so cute together holding hands and what not. Then the elderly lady starts taking her shorts off and my sister turns to me and whispers, "Kassandra, haha, just imagine if that lady was wearing a bikini underneath" we started laughing at the thought, then five seconds later turned in horror when in fact the elderly lady was wearing a bikini! (Very unflattering might I add, but I cant judge I wouldn't ever wear one myself) We couldn't stop laughing. So yes, after another half hour or so of swimming we decided to walk back home.
went home it was around 7:oo pm, and my mom then asked us if we wanted to go to Tim Hortons for coffee, we said sure and went, other than all this and a very nice man stopping to talk to us nothing really happened but I just feel, good. It's weird, have you ever had that feeling where you know something is going to go terribly wrong for you, then it does, but afterward you know something is going to incredibly good? Well that Is the feeling I am having, something good is coming my way.
(here is a quote I love!)
Kindness is the language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see. ~Mark Twain
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Today I had a discussion with some friends and my mom about the world and intelligence. We were talking about the different buildings in ancient times, but mostly about the Greek temples in Sicily, (Agrigento) and how even though they had no technology they still were able to provide the basic needs for themselves by math and strategic designs. for example in one of the temples even though it was 54 degrees Celsius outside when we went inside the temple it was so cold we needed to put on sweaters, and this cool air was all produced naturally by the way the temple was built.
so yes, we were having this discussion how people today, (although it pains me to say this) are not as logical and intuitive smart as they were so many years ago. Today we rely too much on technology to get us through the day that it is getting to the point where we no longer have to really think for ourselves. we have computers to produce designs, calculators for all our math, miracle growth instead of the old fashioned way of relying on the season and the moon cycles, (which produces much better crops than miracle grow ever will!) and we don't even need to learn how to spell properly either, because we have invented (ingenious might I add) technology that checks spelling for us.
After this entire conversation we came to a conclusion, human beings are not moving forward in life, but in a sense moving backwards. We have become lazy to the point where most of our thinking in a day isn't ourselves it is technology and outside forces around us. Once upon a time we relied solely on ourselves and the force of nature around us, now we dont even rely on ourselves, or nature, just a piece of plastic and metal. Yup, that really makes me feel safe, that a lifeless computer has more knowledge than the average human being. Yup that's pretty sad.
"It's hard for the ape to believe he descended from man..." -H.L. Mencken
Monday, July 12, 2010
*Sighs* its been a rather long day today and I am soooo glad its over. Today I found something out that I just knew was going to happen because it was almost too good to be true. I was so looking forward to the beach, the sun, not having to worry about responsibilities and just relaxing. I was so excited to go to the wedding and enjoy the beautiful waters.... If you havent figured it out, my trip to the Dominican Republic, that I have been looking forward to since before school let out, was canceled.
Do I know why it was canceled, no, only that my uncle the one who was taking my sister and I couldn't go, so that was that! Anyways I hate it when this happens, (and it seems to happen quite frequently) every time I look forward to going someplace, or doing something it is always canceled, is it me or just my luck? Or is it happening for some twisted reason. All I know is that sometimes it reeeaally sucks.
So for that week that I planning to have taken off, what will I be doing instead, (actually this pretty much makes up for it and I am super excited) I will be spending a few days with my godparents in Toronto, being a tourist for a bit seeing the Cn tower...again and seeing the new exhibit at the ROM (Royal Ontario Museum) of the Terracotta Warriors, oh and visiting the best dessert place ever, Demetre's! Haha, and somehow I managed to get invited to a party that week as well, so it kinda made itself up. At least this time I will be having fun alongside of friends and family, where as before it was just my sister, and my uncle who Is somewhat tolerable, (we all have that one relative...) The only thing I am really bummed about, is not getting that tan!
"A Vacation is what you take when you no longer take what you've been taking" - Earl Winson
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Oh my goodness gracious! I am completely and utterly exhausted! And I have probably mentioned before I live on a lot of land, (about 10 acres) and every year my family and I keep putting off weeding the front lawn, (Which is about an acre itself) . So today we battled the front lawn madness, and I was outside for five hours sipping, pulling, racking and cutting these monstrous weeds, (im not exaggerating they were way over the legal limit here!) and the sadest part is I am only about a fifth done..... :( My mom refuses to hire someone to do it, because she thinks its good exercise, and "Builds character" so for the next little while I will continue this ongoing battle.
Personally, I really don't mind the work. Call me crazy, but I think I actually like weeding the front yard. Not only do I feel accomplished, but it gives me time to think to myself and a project for the summer. I am the type of person who would go crazy without anything to do, that's why I love the school year so much, I'm always busy and working towards something.
Anyways back to my battle, So yes. Today it was my mothers idea to go outside and weed the yard, she couldn't have picked a better time to. 11:00 am - 4:00 pm, the hottest time of the day! So I was dying of heat, went through at least 4 liters of water and the absolute WORST part out of everything is, I got the nastiest farmers tan! It's horrible I mean I know I tanned but the top half of my shoulders are still white... At least now I learned my lesson, note to self, tank top.
"A weed is a plant that is not only in the wrong place, but intends to stay."- Sara Stein
Saturday, July 10, 2010
the wind attacks my face,
cold and sharp as ice,
harder than a mace,
gripping like a vice,
the tundra that surrounds me,
is cold and always cruel,
a bed of arctic sea,
capturing each fool,
souls who venture out,
to this unforgiving land,
often truly doubt,
the power of its hand,
but I, full of compassion,
know the northern tongue,
i forgive the arctic fashion,
that all the tales have sung,
creature from these northern tales,
who snarl, prowl and fight,
larger than the ocean whale,
who stalk the ground by night,
who whisper horrors while you sleep,
and make your mind forget,
they strike the eyes and make you weep,
and cause your soul to fret,
But I, full of compassion,
forgive they who roam,
for the ice in every fashion,
is my land, my heart, my home.
-August 26 2009
Friday, July 9, 2010
Lately I have been doing a lot of reading, (mostly ficiton) and I don't know what it is about fiction that just draws me to it. Maybe it is the idea that anything can happen, and circumstances that one would never expect suddenly occurs, and the outcomes are always drastic. Or maybe it is the use of magic, the themes of love/hate, darkness and the light, destiny, dreams, alternate reality, and heroes. or, maybe I just read too much, lol. I don't know. But today as I was taking a little break from reading A thought popped into my head. Imagine if my life was one of these novels?
Being a person who loves to write, I often do little writing exercises in my head to keep imagination and such flowing, I will sometimes just go for a walk look around me and according to what I see make up a sort of plot line to the scenery. I also do this with people when I go shopping, I'll see a person know nothing about them then develop a story according to how they are dressed, walk, interact with others or what their body language tells me. (this also steams off from my love of drama and acting. )
So, yes back to my story..... The novel idea got me thinking. "Imagine this", i thought to myself, " i live in a fiction novel, ok according to my circumstances what would happen in this plot." Then I came up with this plot line.........
1.girl from a small town, living in a situation she doesn't like.
2.She is not the popular kid in high school,(11th grade we shall say) maybe even kind of, invisible. She has a group of friends who are all unique in their own ways. Each of them are very different, and a lot like her in the sense that they aren't really "there" (ignored by most at school).
3.Every day girl and friends would meet at a certain location in the woods for lunch, it is their safe spot where they hang out and talk.
4.Then one day for some reason girl and best friend, are held behind after lunch when the others leave.
5.Someone is coming from another part of the forest, girl and best friend discover something they were not meant to know and are put into a very dangerous situation.
6.both are not who they thought they were, run away from home and thrown into a journey. 7.Maybe there are supernatural forces at work, ( because the supernatural can be made into something almost dreamlike.)
8.two Girls meet up with a fortune teller who tells them something great about them,
9.two girls befriend a group of people from the secret they partially discovered,
10.discover their real friends were trying to protect them from the beginning, and new who these two were meant to be.
11.turns out there is a mole among them the group that befriends the two girls
12.but the mole falls in love with the enemy,
and this is all I have so far.....
anyways this was when I was in the car driving home from the passport office, (for the Dominican Republic! XD ) and I was really bored and taking a break from the book i was reading. So yes, I think it would be amazing to have my life like a fiction novel, the possibilities are simply endless.
"fiction reveals truth, reality obscures." -Ralph Waldo Emerson
Thursday, July 8, 2010
I have very strong beliefs, and one of the things I passionately believe in, is destiny. I hear people all the time saying that there is no destiny, it was just a fluke, and this I find completely ridiculous. How could there not be a destiny? Too many things in this world are so ironic, and happen at the oddest of times, how could there not be a destiny?
For example. When I was six years old, I lived with my mom, dad, and sister. My mom had just lost her job and my dad was supporting the four of us, it was just a regular night, everything was the same as it usually was, but somehow different. I discovered what was different very early the next morning on my way to the bathroom. It was my dad, he had had a major heart attack and passed away in the middle of the night. And I, I found his body.
The point is, there we were the three of us, trying to make it through this loss, and now on top of it all my mom needed to find a way to support us all. It was by "fluke" that the day we went back to school, she was dropping us off, that the answer occurred. She was walking us in when she accidentally dropped something on the ground and spoke in french to pick it up, the passing french teacher heard her and said she spoke amazing french, my mom told her she went to university in france, and it turns out the school wa sin dire need of a french teacher. It was that day my mom got her job that she has had for eight years.
it doesn't end there. After eight years of working in the school, they found someone to replace my mom, (this was the year after my sister graduated her elementary school) and also the year, my uncle in Italy passed away. (the same way my dad did.) and left my moms sister and her two daughters in the same situation we had once been in. this worked out, because my mom (since she was unemployed at the time) was able to fly into Italy and stay with my aunt. coincidence? I think not.
It was after this when my mom got back, that she was out job hunting again. She did some catering, (because she owns a cetering/events planning company) for the school and it was there that the Mayor got to sample some of her food. He loved and ended up setting her up with the man in charge of small business advertising, who put my mothers name in all the school boards systems for not only our town, but the towns surrounding ours as well. Which is incredible because every time there is a special event at a school, the first person they would call now, is my mom!
there are so many more stories I have, but to keep this brief I am leaving you with this...... What do you believe in, destiny, or fluke?
"I seldom end up where I want to go, but almost always end up where I need to be..." -DOuglas Adams
I have noticed something lately, I don't know what it is, but it seems as though as I get older, time moves so much quicker. I remember when I was in elementary school, and it seemed like it would be eternity before I went into the high school. (well it didn't help that I really disliked my elementary school :S) I would be sitting in class all the time, hating that I was still treated like a little kid and I just wanted to grow up so much faster!
Then, by the time I made it to high school, i was a little happier but it was strange. (at my school begins in the seventh grade because we are considered a "college") By the time I could even get used to this new system four years went by in a blink of an eye. And now I am sitting at home just in awe, at how fast this has gone by. But then I also think about decisions I need to make, and if four years went by that quickly, I now have two years left to make all the decisions about my future, and to be honest with you I am really afraid.
Choices for my future career need to be made in this very short amount of time and I still have no clue as to what I want to do. Life is just so overwhelming some times, and the clock speed really doesn't help. :( I think I might want to go into teaching, I love school, always have, and I think I always will, and I would love to make a difference some how and that may accomplish my goal. But then again I also believe every person has a destiny, and I am not quite sure what I am meant to do.
Haha, I just hope that these next two years turn on some light bulb up there, because I am running out of time! Thanks for putting up with my little late night/early morning musing, thanks for reading.
"Time is a brisk wind, for each hour it brings something new... but who can understand and measure its sharp breath, its mystery and its design?" ~Paracelsus
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Today I have decided to try something new. I don't know what it is lately, maybe its the fact that we are in the middle of an official heat wave, or maybe it is just so tiring this summer everyone is annoyed, but lately I have noticed the negativity so think in the air you could probably cut it with a knife. And it seems to be contagious too, it spreads like wildfire, someone says or does something negative the next person starts and it goes on, and on , and on..... Anyways Today i have decided to try something new. instead of complaining, I am going to basically do the opposite and count my blessings, or as I like to call it, uncomplain.
we are in the middle of a heat wave, and my house has no air conditioning..... >:(
hey at least it isnt a drought
you can walk to the beach every single day!
abundance of ice and water!
an excuse to not excursive, (health advisers says anyone without AC should not excursive)
excuse to eat more popsicles , :)
get to drink more cold water, yay
Oh and eat a ton of watermelon because you lose so much sodium in this heat!
excuse to be lazy.
I am stuck being in charge of two library events!!!!
hey if I pull them off, it gives me bonus points with my future employers,
i get to meet more people this way,
it really is fun,
right after i go to the Dominican republic
excuse to paint more.
gives me something to do, and I work well under pressure.
so ya, you get the point these are basically my two major er... "uncomplaints" right now, and I am determined to look at tings more positively. Thanks for reading!
"a pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity, and optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty." -Winston Churchill
GAHHH!!!! I am so stressed out right now it is crazy! I volunteer at the local library and every summer they have the summer events for the kids. This year my sister was put in charge of the music appreciation day, and I was put in charge of the water day. So my sister was given this day about a month ago, and now (a week before we are supposed to present it) she bailed! She hasn't done anything and the musicians she was supposed to contact are booked and I am running around trying to find performers and bribing people with community service hours. In total I have me, half a keyboard, (because my cord broke!) a maybe Saxophone, and my friend Cheyenne who is up for singing with me.
I love my sister, but really? I didn't need this right now considering the week after I have to present my week, (in which I have several paintings to complete, and possibly the fire department to contact not to mention the games to plan) *sighs* but then again, there is nothing else to do, I may have to pull a few strings, and bribe some others, but I will succeed. Just have to stay positive. worse comes to worse, I will play a karaoke CD and the kids can go wild. Anyways, that was my mini rant for right now.
"in times of great stress or adversity, its always best to keep busy, to plow your anger and energy into something positive." -Lee Iacocca
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Today was a pretty relaxing day for me, did basically nothing, (other than my work out and a long painful walk) so i decided to do some searching on ye old internet. What was I looking for? Well when I started I really didn't know, but eventually it turned into a Broadway musical search.
I have recently discovered, that I am addicted, (and I mean ADDICTED!) to Broadway musicals. I watched RENT today, (a very touching story about two modern day bohemians who are struggling to make it big while dealing with love, loss, aids, and life in new york.) it was so touching I couldn't stop crying through the second part of the movie. (I know purely pathetic!) But hey, thats what happens when you give a teen a summer that is completely free to themselves. What else am I supposed to do?
Ahh, then, there were some really odd musicals I came upon, like Suessical the Musical, (if you havent guessed it!) a musical based on Doctor Suess's stories. Or, March of the Falsettos, a story about four Jewish men, and their problems in life. (this musical featured one song I couldn't stop laughing when I heard it titles; "Four Jews in a Room Bitching.") made me laugh sooooo hard. Then I came upon a classic, A Chorus Line, watched that off of youtube, (well most of it anyways....)
soooo, what did I do with all my new musical knowledge? I decided to search for pieces that would work with my schools choir, and I compiled a list brace yourselves.......
1. Song: Footloose
From: (duh!) Footloose.
(awesome song that is so upbeat, and I think the choir could do it well, since we are not a capella. jotting this one down for next year.)
2. Song: Mamma Mia
From: (again) Mama Mia!
(Love this song, although it is geared more to the girls, but I do know some of the guys in choir would have fun with this one. They loved You cant Stop the Beat last year, lol)
3. Song: Seasons of Love
(a Beautiful song about time and life, this song is practically made for a choir to sing, the question is,....could we pull it off?)
4. Song: Hand Jive
(really does this need an explanation, who didn't think the Hand Jive looked fun!)
5. Song: I Hope I get It
From: A Chorus Line
(this is a very intricate piece that involves a lot of choreography, but the harmonies are divine and the rounds incredible, would be a lot of work, but if we could do it, wow! That would make my life! also its from one of my favorite musicals!)
6. Song: We Go Together
(I did this one in the 6th grade, and it was so much fun, but sounded very bad. Would love to attempt it again and get it right this time. :] )
7. Song: Sing
From: Chorus Line
(this song is more meant for a duet, but could involve the entire choir really funny, more acting than singing, but it would be cool to try....hmmm, maybe talent show?)
8. Song: Shine
From: (Cant remember!) D:
(Anyways this is a beautiful song that would sound epic as a gospel song, the harmonies are sweet, and subtle and the message is wonderful.)
9. Song: The Lion Sleeps Tonight
From: (Not sure.)
(Some poeple in choir wanted t sing this, [in fact when we had a supply teacher in math we broke out into this song, hee hee] and I think it would be an awesome idea! I sense interesting rounds!)
Anyways, ya, that was my list I made today, tell me what you think about it, and if I missed any really good songs feel free to tell me, Im still searching for more!!!!!!!!
"A Bird does not sing because it has an answer, a Bird sings because it has a song." -Maya Anglou